He felt warm and familiar.
He felt solid and safe.
I wanted to cling to his shirt,
bury my face in the curve of his neck
and never let go.
Life is providing lots of reasons for us to be anxious at the moment and I, like many of you, am not loving the levels of uncertainty I am feeling at the moment, however, there are some great things in life to cherish and I’m trying very hard to focus on those things at the moment.
This weekend Mr F and I had another of many dates, but what many folks will hear about as being our second date and honestly it has been such a lovely weekend. The list of reasons I have to utterly adore him seem to grow and grow each time I see him. This weekend that reason includes my new friend Filbert who is in the pictures above.
Stuffed animals might seem like an insignificant thing to some people, for me though that bright-coloured penguin tells me a lot. My house is full of stuffies, I have more than I need for sure, but they make me happy and when Mr F said he was going to buy me a new friend after our visit to the aquarium it was just another tick in the ‘this one’s a keeper’ box.
Not only that but amidst all the corona chaos he is making me feel safe and grounded and seen. Being in his arms, burying my face in his neck, kissing him, sleeping beside him, having fun with him, being silly with him, fucking him, eating with him, relaxing with him, drinking coffee with him, doing all the things with him just makes me feel calmer and more peaceful than I’ve felt in such a long time and that makes me want to hold him close and never let him go.