[Smut Marathon] The Cursed Women & Round 5 Thoughts


#WickedWednesday, Erotica, Every Damn Day In June 2019, Smut Marathon / Thursday, June 13th, 2019

My entry for round five on the Smut Marathon was The Cursed Women. I know many of you will have read it when you read the round five entries, but I suspect more of you haven’t read it and seeing as it fits with this week’s Wicked Wednesday prompt of fantasy, I am sharing it again alongside some of my thoughts on the latest round of the Smut Marathon.

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The people of my land say I did a wicked thing. They judged me harshly and I was banished to a place where darkness prevails. The sun does not rise, day never comes and even the stars do not shine on my cursed dwelling.

I lived in solitude, consumed by loneliness. Sleeping became my blessed relief. Escaping into my dreams, where lovers beckoned me as their bodies entwined. I’d wake with the memory of them lingering upon my skin, as I indulged in my arousal alone.

One day, with my hand nestled between my thighs, I heard the stones upon the ground crunch and clatter. I rushed into the clearing where I sat when I was not sleeping and found a woman stumbling into my darkness, her wails echoing as she succumbed to her fate.

In the darkness, we began to co-exist. We discussed the food drops and sleeping arrangements. I explained what was and wasn’t here. Rocks, yes. Flowers, no. Water, yes. Fire, no. She sobbed again at the lack of fire. I remember that feeling. Imagining what they meant by darkness and then discovering I had truly underestimated how dark your surroundings could truly be. It was absolute and it was terrifying.

Side by side we found a new normal. Her tears slowed and I slept less. We talked endlessly, huddled against each other. Finding comfort in the presence of another person. Our hands began to explore the contours of the others face, in an attempt to visualise our new companion. A smile crept across my face; she was beautiful.  

I had missed the intimacy of human touch so much and a familiar feeling began to radiate within me as her fingers brushed across the surface of my skin. I tried to contain myself, to keep my feelings hidden but when her hand moved from my face trailing down my neck and across my collar bone, the soft sigh I could not contain told her all she needed to know.

We came to know each other as deeply as two people ever could. Mouths explored, breasts heaved, nipples tingled and fingers dipped into the warmth between our thighs as we cried out in pleasure, loud, uninhibited and joyful. With little else to do, we became insatiable.

In the midst of my cursed life, I found beauty and light in another.

Love, not darkness, prevailed.

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There are only four more rounds to go of the Smut Marathon. FOUR! We have been sent the assignment for round six, which means that this past Sunday brought news of the results of round five. I did okay, sort of. The feedback I received was amazing. Fair to say some people had issues with The Cursed Women, but overall people were very kind and I was exceptionally grateful for that. Especially as the votes did not support their enthusiasm!

I am currently 11th in the overall rankings and I’m pretty happy with that. Only 30 of us will make it through round six and into round seven. With currently 50 of us remaining in the contest. Everything can change in the space of one round though and there is no guarantee my next entry will get me through.

At this point, I think I’m good with all outcomes. For my own personal ego boost, I needed to do better than last year, and I have done that in leaps and bounds. Now every round I get to compete in is a bonus. Add to that the amount I am learning about how I approach my writing and what areas I could perhaps do with improving and I feel like I’ve already won in so many ways.

Asides from one entry, which I’m a little ambivalent about, I’ve loved all my entries. That in itself carries a lot of weight. With this year’s Smut Marathon that has been my number one priority. That and trying to come up with a creative idea. I’ve never written my first idea in any round. Because if that was my first idea, chances are it will have been someone else’s too. This means I’ve already ditched two ideas for round six! Even though one of them is being extremely persistent, it can bugger off though, I know it is not the right story for this round.

One of the things the Smut Marathon continually shows me is that writing, and perhaps especially erotica, is incredibly subjective. I think it can be very easy to shoulder the burden of every opinion that comes your way and try to adapt your writing to suit everyone. You will never achieve this and no one should never try to in my opinion. Honestly, I think some days we just have to say ‘… Don’t like it? Tough shit. My voice, my words, my way.’ I know this sounds harsh and a little like I’m saying ignore feedback, which isn’t the case at all.

Feedback is amazing and can be absolutely invaluable. A lot of feedback given though will be based on the opinion of the person giving it and their vision of erotica may not be yours. I think it is important to know what you want to write and why so that when folks say ‘smut should be this’ you can say ‘actually I want my smut to be this’. Both of which will be valid approaches, and agreeing to differ with our peers is perhaps crucial to keeping our wonderful community full of variety.

A lot of the people who have left feedback on my Smut Marathon pieces have never visited my blog, so their opinion is formed on the word count of one story, seems a bit daft when I look at it like that to take their opinions to heart and let myself doubt the thousands of words you folks have enjoyed because they didn’t like the hundred plus words I thought up to adhere to the requirements of an assignment. Once again, I am grateful for their feedback but I am trying to action it in a suitable manner instead of allowing it to be fuel to burn down FlossDoeLife.

I offer this as a perspective because I see amazing bloggers doubting themselves every day and even though I bloody love the Smut Marathon it definitely sends some challenges our way and one of those challenges is I think not letting this one writing adventure define us.

7 Replies to “[Smut Marathon] The Cursed Women & Round 5 Thoughts”

  1. “it definitely sends some challenges our way and one of those challenges is I think not letting this one writing adventure define us.”

    Yes, yes, yes! The Smut Marathon was never intended to make people doubt themselves, but for them to learn more about and develop their writing, just like you have done! Thank you for your words, Floss!

    Rebel xox

  2. Congratulations Floss!! You are learning as you go. The vagaries of “what is smut?” will always create a discordant note in your feedback. So it is good that you take it in stride. I wish you success moving into this round. Good luck!!

  3. Excellent post Floss. I loved your story and had it in my top three. Like you, I have lots of ideas always bubbling around my head for each round. Last round I actually wrote a whole story but I ditched it because I thought it wasn’t erotic enough, I liked it though and have put it in this week’s Wicked Wednesday. I wish you all the very best for the next round. I know you’ll do well.

  4. Loved that story, it was dark and twisty in such a lovely way!

    Mine was pretty intense and out there- (Thank you Daddy)- like you I didn’t want to do what everyone was doing and was worried that would be happening a lot in this round.

    One of the judges said how great the writing was and how intense, but she couldn’t give it 10 because it was just too scary for her. That’s how this works, but I think it’s a good example of what you said about how erotica is so very subjective!

    I’m glad we’re both still in it! I think I am like 15/16 rank or something so still very doable I hope!!

  5. The insights into the way you write were really interesting and thought provoking – love the way you’ve decided to do it your way too – and the story is stunning – and really quite touching. Thanks

  6. It made me laugh that one of your story ideas for Round Six is pestering you…. You should write is anyway. You can share it here once the round is over. I am curious to read it the pesky thing 😉

    Mollyx

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